not bad

dah lama tak update blog- modem ada masalah and seterusnya membawa kepada tamatnya pakej broadband yg aku pakai..semenya sbb modem and connection yg lembab..maybe sbb aku duk kawasan estet...so signal agak weak. bertukar kepada 1515 tmnet, not bad....walaupun tahap kelajuan dia tak sama dengan 3G celcom tapi alhamdullilah, so far (baru 2 hari pakai) laju jgk and no problem.

bulan ni merupakan bulan yg paling panas sejak kami berpindah ke segamat....dari pagi sampai malam...maybe kawasan lain pun sama. agak lama jgk tak hujan...last time hujan, kilat berdentum sampai bergegar atap umah...sib baik tak jadi apa2 and huby pun kat umah masa tu. kalu tak memang aku kaget nak buat apa. kalu sorang2 tak apa tapi anak2. bimbangkan depa.

tak nak cerita banyak2 utk entry kali ni...sbb dah lama tak berblogging so kena amek time dulu.

ja....

a day to celebrate

being pregnant and carrying baby inside ur womb for nine months is the most wonderful experience you ever had. seeing my little cousin, mohd haikal hafiz (born on 7th december) sure got me eager to have another. well...which not advised by my previous doctor. (she strongly told me not to get pregnant at least for another 5 years) ..

i could still recall both time when i hold my precious babies. fifi was so small compared to amani and she looked more fragile than her sister. i remember how loud fifi cried in the nursery (which woke up most of the babies) and the nurse told me, she was the loudest (well, even today). amani...well, she cried the first day and the nurse could not put her down until she was put beside me. then she sleep like a baby.

amani

fifi

there were much more memories about them which i'm sure every mum had and have not forgoten too..





to my dearest maksu,





congratulation for your newborn baby.

album lama

semalam menyibukkan diri dengan membelek albm lama. ada yg buat sengih sesorang, ada yg buat rasa terkilan and sedih. agaknya mungkin sbb dah lama tak jumpa kekawan lama, terus sayu semacam.

perasaan ingin bekerja semula tetiba je datang..terasa rindu lak. and kekadang buat rasa depressed pun ada.

something about the way daphne (bai boo magazine - gurdian) buat aku terpikir memacam. she said, 'there's no two way about it.'

you can choose to be a fulltime mother or a career mother. either way, you shouldnt have to feel oblighed coz at the end, it will not bring any happiness to u or to ur kids. parenting didnt stop when our kids got married..it stop when we close our eyes- something that i learned while spending too much time reading online. and yes, i do feel happy and lucky because i could watched every steps they took and every details of their life with me. i glad and thankful.

but i'm not perfect. and having this urge to go outside and work, have make me felt misrable inside coz i know deep down, i cannot trust anyone with my kids.

when i read capt's blog - there i was reminded. set my priorities...he always remind me (during my work days) and much more advise and wisdom of words that i have lately forgoten. there were some of his entry that make me think again and again how my life have been this past few years. how ups and downs gave me enough strength to smile again and not to feel regret on some things that have been in mind lately.

i have make the choice. and yes, i'm happy with my choice...

so, if i feel out of blue in future, remind me how precious life is..

happy oktober

wanna wish happy birthday

to my dearest friends and mentor

they are too precious to me

i pray and hope

may they have a blessing happiness

blessing life with their family and kids

blessing joy and serenity with their love one.

HFMD

hand, foot and mouth diseases..

i read about it...but i take it for granted. now? my two precious baby are being effected by it. alhamdullilah..both of them are getting better.

hfmd -

-boleh dijangkiti dgn mudah kpd kanak2 berusia 3 tahun kebawah.

-jangkitan melalui sentuhan secara langsung (direct contact from one person to another) dgn -lelehan dari hidung and tekak atau najis.

-lagi senang dijangkiti kalau di minggu pertama virus bermula.

tanda jangkitan?

- demam panas yg tinggi (>39 darjah)

- ruam lampin (amat ketara)

-bintik2 merah di tangan and kaki (mcm campak)

-ruam di tangan especially tapak tangan and kaki

-ulser mulut

-hilang selera makan, penat/ lesu, tak aktif

-restless di waktu malam

kesan?

boleh menyebabkan jangkitan paru2 and jantung (according to our doctor).

kalau jangkitan tak serius, biasanya akan ok selepas 10 hari...

anak akan hilang selera makan, susut berat badan, ulser mulut, tak boleh tido malam.

even ruam or bintik merah dah hilang tapi virus masih ada - and bole menyebabkan jangkitan.

susulan daripada jangkitan kedua boleh berlaku- kalau serius and perlu dipantau oleh parents.

komplikasi?

-if tak serius, boleh sihat dalam tempoh 7-10 hari.

- if not, infection boleh menyebabkan kematian...fatal.

my babies?

first time nampak bintik merah di tangan fifi and amani, aku ingatkan sbb kena gigit dek nyamuk or semut (maklmla baru balik dr beraya). then it became more serious bila bintik tu mcm berair. amani start demam, tapi aku duk ingatkan sbb berjangkit demam dari ayah depa. so aku bagi ubat demam mcm biasa. bila bintik di tangan fifi and amani makin ketara, fifi plak yg demam. that day, memang dia tak melompat mcm biasa. senyap jer tengok tv and lesu semcm. bila dah demam panas, aku ingatkan campak sbb bintik2 merah makin banyak and it seem like chicken pox. aku duk fikir, takkan campak lagi...huby pun start pikir yg sama. bila tangan and kaki amani makin ketara, pi check up..sbb takut kudis or allergic.

rupa2 dr cakap hfmd...aku time tu dah naik gabra..memang takut sangat sbb even aku dah pernah baca pasal ni tapi aku tak ingat kesan dia. ambik tak pusing sampailer kena dek anak sendiri. fifi langsung tak nak susu and makan sbb ulser mulut and blister. dr cakap tak serius lagi so kami kena tengok tiga simptom - tak aktif, muntah2 and sesak nafas. kalau ada tiga2 tanda ni, maknanya kena bawak pi pital and serius. perasaan aku? tak yah cakap la. ayah depa pun tak sampai hati tengok tangan and kaki fifi yg teramatla menyedihkan. susut berat badan dia. muka pun dah nampak kecik.

nasib baik amani tak serius mcm kakak dia. a few days jer bintik tu naik. lepas dah start mkn ubat, dia aktif mcm biasa, bintik pun dah tak ada. alhamdllilah. cuma fifi yg teruk skit. malam2 tak leh tido sbb duk garu..actually, tak bole di biarkan, so selalunya kami gosok jer. sian kat huby sbb terpaksa mengorbankan tido.

sudahla fifi ni susah sangat nak bagi makan ubat, lagila huby tak sampai hati nak suap. aku ler....kalu menangis pun, menangis la dalam hati. tak sampai hati tengok anak sakit mcm tu.

hari ni tengok fifi dah start menari2 balik. aku lega yang amat sangat. susu pun dah start minum semalam. alhamdullilah..cuma makan jer kurang lagi. bintik still ada and ada yg makin susut. ruam di punggung pun dah makin tak ada...lega sangat.

dr advised bagi makan ais krim sbb blister dalam mulut. air pun air sejuk, jgn panas or suam. fifi tido pun tak berbaju sbb gatal and panas. tak bole bagi dia dalam keadaan berpeluh, or else bintik2 merah akan memedihkan dia.

yg sedihnya, fifi tak bole bagitau kami kat mana dia sakit...apa yg dia rasa...haih..tetiba teringat time dia sakit kuning and being warded dulu. fragile sangat2...

so parents yg kat luar tu, take note la...mcm aku ni, ignorant sangat. bila dah jadi, mulala kalut baca apa yg ada...mula la sibuk simpan info..

selamat hari raya

selamat hri raya to all

hopefully this year bring ur a great joy and hapiness...

soyi yer terlambat wish..

raya tahn ni, yg sonoknyer tengok fifi and amani

yang tak sonoknyer bila handbag hilang bersertakan purse, camera and etc..huhuhu

nantiler kiter citer lagi k.

malam ni kasi intro dulu.

permata hati ibu and ayah

amani - sama tak dgn kakak dia?

cold

nak tido tapi takleh tido

mata dah ngantuk ni tapi rasa mcm berat sangat nak bum bum

badan memang rasa penat sbb otak rasa penat sangat

nape ek?

sbb anak2 bertuah aku demam...dua2 lak tu...

demam selsema lak tu

penat.... aku pun rasa mcm nak demam ni

tulunnn

double joy

hepi sesangat ari ni sbb jeng jeng

first time ever i heard amani called me eebu..hahaha. yelah, selama ni duk panggil aku yah yah.. amani's first word was ayah. amazing kan? walaupun dalam nada yg mcm marah sbb nak lepaskan yah tu..unlike fifi, her first word was bubu.. sejuk tul badan ibu yg mengandung. actually tak kisahla mana2 pun, kan?

second, today she took 3 steps forward (yes! she's finally start to walk) toward me without holding my hand. walla. only when she realized that she was not holding my hand or kerusi then she panic and fall down. and yes, she was smiling. :)

teringat time fifi mula2 berjalan. fifi ni lain skit. agak malu nak tunjuk yg dia bole jalan depan aku or her ayah. selalunya nak kena pegang tangan baru nak jalan. istimewanya fifi ni, dia hanya akan jalan sorang2 without holding anything when the light was off. adala one night hubby pura2 tido (memang huby yg tidokan anak sulung) and fifi lak merangkak ke bilik. tiba2 jer huby tengok fifi berjalan ke arah huby perlahan2. tup2 jer dah ada depan mata. punyala terkejut huby time tu. sejak ari tu fifi jalan sendiri. sweet kan?

incidents

1st incident:

i gave amani serai to play with when i want to cook lunch last week. it give me some time or else i have to play with her. lagipun dia duk tarik baju aku...so kena bagi something yg boleh ralitkan dia. selalunya amani main drum dgn serai tu. tapi that day special skit. without me noticing it she went to the living room where her sister was. they end up with a lot of screaming as fifi tried to grab 'serai' from amani. i noticed two things since that day. amani is a lot stronger and fast. u can never imagine how fast she run with her walker towards the kichen and her face was full of determination to get to me as fast as she can. walla...when she reached me, she have this cicky smiles that i dont know how to response. her sis? menangis ler sbb tak dapat tarik serai dari tangan amani. aku? haih...

2nd incident:

i was washing our aquarium with makcik sanniah help. sementara nak nunggu air penuh dalam tangki, makcik sanniah went out to help me jemurkan baju. nak dijadikan cerita pintu cermin tak ditutup rapat. risaukan anak2 kucing masuk aku sruh ler fifi tutupkan pintu. selalunya dia tutup tak kunci tapi hari tu fifi pi kuncikan pintu lak. imagine betapa paniknya makcik sanniah kat luar pintu bila aku panggil dia. rupanya fifi lock terus. aku time tu tengah duk pegang paip air and for sureler air dah melimpah mcm sungai. alahai..bila aku surh fifi bukak pintu, fifi lak lari menceceh ke kerusi sbb panik tengok air, siap menjerit takut lagi. respon aku? emmm tak reti dah nak cakap per.

3rd incident:

aku marahkan fifi yg pukul amani tapi sudahnya amani marah aku balik dgn hentak2 tangan atas walker dia. siap jeling lagi bila aku duk diam. respon aku? mmmmm


4th incident:

huby tolong urutkan belakang aku (sejak last week asyik berangin jer badan gara2 makan laksa tak ingat dunia and tak ingat nak pantang kan). ada ler aku menjerit skit sbb sakit. yg si kakak fifi lak duk jerit2 kat aku. ingatkan aku gaduh dgn ayah dia. without me knowing it, fifi pi gigit lengan aku...respon aku? sakit giler, huhuhu.

haih...poning poning...nak gelak pun ada.

wedding

to zai and sid

happy wedding day

may Allah bless your newfound hapiness

may your wedding last forever

may you found the hapiness that you're looking for

sid - am sorry for not be able to be there on your special day. i pray for you and your new family. glad that you two married!!!

rompin

last friday huby bawak pi holiday ke kuala rompin. dah lama tak amek cuti and amek kesempatan cuti ahad (for zai's wedding) to rest instead.



original plan nak ke Summerset tapi sbb tak nak terlebih budgt we choose Rompin Beach Resort.



it took us about 2 hours and after dah pening2 pusing kami pun sampaila kat tempat yg last minute dituju. the rate was just nice and we just focus on one thing - to let fifi plays with water as long as she wants.



after check in, terus ayah depa bwk pi swimming. fifi? tak yah cakap ler...excited sesangat sampai telan ayaq banyak. tak amek gambar pun sbb ibu depa pun duk excited mandi sama.huhuhu.



dah penat mandi, pi pantai lak kat belakang chalet..not bad tapi mcm sunyi sesangat. bagi budak2 ni main pasir jap terus balik bilik- penat.



petang tu pi pantai hiburan - dekat jer dari resort (2km) and pekena rojak ayam, laksa and abc- kalu bole memang nak pekena rojak depa lagi. org pun lebih ramai kat sini- memang jadi tumpuan. so jalan2 and rest...si ibu hapy ler sbb dah lama tak cuti ngan huby kan...



mlm tu fifi demam..maybe sbb terminum air kolam..sepanjang malam berkepit dgn ayah dia. tak mau aku peluk pun..sudahnya aku tido jerla ngan amani.



after breakfast and rest, kami berangkat pulang. nak kena cari hadiah kat pengantin..



penat - sampai ari ni terasa penat. sib baik fifi demam sehari jer. naik risau kami.

gambar pun takleh upload lagi - connection gilong skit

bila dah biasa

makcik sanniah (yg tolong kemaskan umah ak ni) menegur bila aku duk asyik korek telinga budak2 ni..."senangnya ... korek telinga budak2 ni ya. kalu budak lain dah meronta dah"

aku punya respon?

"dah biasa kut"

tapi bagi akula, sure budak2 lain yg sebaya depa ni senang jugak kut...kan?

i'm lucky coz i'm at home. 24 hours per day i'm stick to them like glue. so everything that i do i always get them involved (of coursela not everything right). maybe sbb bila aku nak korek telinga, i make sure amani and fifi were there with me. i always make sure they watched and make funny faces or voices while doing it. itupun sbb pernah terbaca dalam magazine
(time tunggu check up fifi dulu) that u need to get the kids involved with basic things.

so, everytime fifi and amani mandi, i make sure i brushed my teeth (sbb tu ubat gigi cepat abis). mcm fifi, setiap kali dia mandi, aku akan berus gigi. bila dia nak pegang, aku bagi berus gigi (cuma make sure dia tak masukkan dalam mulut jerla). so dia akan teruja and nak buat jgk. when she have her own teeth, we bought her own toothbrush (i'm sure every parents will do so) and let her brushed her own. most of the time, fifi gosok bottom teeth. gigi atas, dia tak pandai sangat so aku kena buat. make it fun- bagi dia lak gosokkan gigi kita. baru best bagi dia la sbb dia gelak.

today, i brushed for her. if i forgot she will go to the sink and pointing her finger at her brush. she let me brushed her bottom teeth, gigi atas susah skit sbb aku Terberus kuat and dia rasa sakit. so bila nak berus gigi atas tu, kenala berlakon skit (adakala ok, adakala not ok).

skrang turn amani lak. tapi amani ni lain pesyen skit. dia lebih suka layan air..huhuhu. takper...masih jauh perjalanan memberus gigi amani.

mek pun pernah cakap yg fifi and amani senang bila aku nak potong kuku depa. ada setengah budak, nak kena tunggu depa tido baru leh potong. entahla. maybe sbb aku selalu make sure amani ada kut bila potong kuku fifi. most of the time, aku tak paksa kalu fifi tak nak..aku tunggu dia hulur tangan dia. bila dia tak nak, aku buat2 potong kuku sendiri, she will let me on her own time. memang kena banyak sabau ler. selalunya aku akan potong bila M.I.C.K.E.Y M.O.U.S.E. on air..muahahahaa...menyenang kerja oden.

overall, i dont think my kids are special for these three cases. am sure budak2 lain pun senang utk berus gigi, korek telinga and potong kuku kan?

sbb bagi aku, tak kisahla kalu si ibu keja atau duk rumah,asalkan dia tahu spent some quality time with her kids, am sure everything will be ok. yg penting pendekatan yg digunakan.

bila dah biasa, budak2 pun tak rasa janggal nak buat or let us do it for them. cuma kena biasakan shj. kan?

growing hotz

panas.....

dah berapa hari tak ujan..panasnya.

fifi and amani kena mandi at least 3x sehari. kalu panas sangat aku bagi jer anak2 ribena aku yg makin comel ni beremdam dalam kolam plastik selama yg depa nak. fifi kalu dapat air abisla, jenuh aku nak suruh kuar dari bilik air.

cuaca mcm ni, kena make sure sesangat fifi and amani minum air banyak2. lebih2 lagi fifi yg cepat berpeluh kalu berlari ke hulu hilir. kaki fifi tak pernah nak kenal penat agaknya. kalu mood dia ok, abisla satu living room dia duk lari ngan adik dia. kekadang tu bole dengar suara depa kat luar rumah. lebih2 lak bila amani lani dah pandai jerit kuat2 and gelak sakan.

amani lak dah tak nak sangat duk dalam walker dia. nak suruh dipimpin tangan...mula nak bertatih. alhamdullilah. kalu aku nak letak balik dalam walker, ada ajer helah dia tak nak duduk. jenuh nak pujuk dia masuk dalam walker, kalu tak memang tak buat kerja la aku hari tu.

sebulan lagi dah masuk ramadhan. cepat kan? sebulan lagi jgkla anak sulung oden 2 tahun, lepas tu amani lak setahun. cepat tul masa jalan. tak sedar pun yg depa dah makin besar. serasa mcm baru jer semalam aku tengok muka kemerahan and badan kecil yg monggil. lani dah besar panjang anak2 dara ayah.

bila tengok album balik, tak tau naper rasa sedih nengok gambar budak2 ni masa kecil. rasa mcm tak nak jer bagi depa besar cepat skit. biorla kecil mcm ni...alahai. tak faham betul aku ni.

hati ibu

imagine terserempak dgn seorang ibu yg menolak anaknya yg kurang upaya dalam stroller. perasaan?

imagine bila asyik duk pilih barang dapur and terserempak dengan ibu yg sama tapi sekarang ada si ayah and anak perempuan yg cukup sifat and comel. perasaan?

imagine bila utk ke sekian kalinya terserempak and melihat si ibu jauh skit dari anak yg kurang upaya kerana menengok cincin silver sampaikan anak menangis tak sedar. perasaan?

imagine bila si ayah tengah duk amek gambar anak perempuannya and tak sedar yg anak lelakinya yg kurang upaya meronta dalam stroller. perasaan?

imagine bila kita melihat org yg lalu lalang dan melihat anak tadi and si ibu sambil menggeleng kepala. perasaan?

imagine bila si ibu sedar, baru ditolak stroller anaknya dekat skit and si ayah mula mengambil si anak utk bermain sebelah anak perempuannya. perasaan?

imagine bila anak lelaki yg kurang upaya mula tidak selesa and si ibu mendukung si anak perempuan sementera si ayah melayan si abang. perasaan?


i'm not a good person and i'm not really interested in other person or even their life for no reason. but i do have feeling when i saw what happen. i might not understand the mother. maybe she's tired and only this time she find her own peace. i might not being fair to judge other people character or act based on what i see and hear- it will not be fair for them or for me.

somehow i feel sad for no reason when i looked at that child. somehow...

six months

when amani and fifi turned 5 months old, i counted days until they turn 6 months. why? simple..a month for celebration. finally i can feed them with real food. celebration la tu...

as for fifi, maybe sbb i'm a new mother so excited tu terlebih2 sampai beli geber, nestum and etc. well, tak berapa elok sebenarnya (dependla..ini pendapat aku jer ehh). so when it came to amani turn, i dont really fed her nestum - lagipun dia memang tak nak. so most of the time, i cooked bubur nasi and puri buah. of course bubur nasi tu kena make sure lembik sesangat supaya tummy dia tak terkejut. take turn dgn masak puri buah and puri patato supaya dia tak jemu. lagipun time ni crucial kalu tak jaga betul2 apa yg dia makan. takut nanti dia ada sembelit, susah nanti.

kesian kat anak..lagi2 kalu mothers yg mcm aku ni...have to admit aku paling takut nak sumbat punggung anak dgn medicine cair yg memudahkan pembuangan air besar anak. tak pernah pun aku pegang and memang tak kan nak...aku tak berani.. so, alternatif lain, make sure bubur tu ada sawi, epal hijau and selalula urut perut anak (mcm dalam Nona- URUTAN BAYi).

i am blessed sbb amani and fifi paling suka makan bubur sawi (sawi kan ada banyak jenis, so pandai2 la bergilir2).

yg paling elok, jgnla kerap sangat masak bubur nasi with kentang. kata maksu huby nanti bertambah gebula kemontelan anak tu..(jarangkan2 la...memangla manis masak bubur nasi with kentang- yum yum). no wonder fifi cepat sangat membesar...dulu aku selalu sangat campur2 nasi and kentang. time amani, dah kurang sbb baru tahu.

bagi aku ini perkara penting. masuk umur 6 bulan, anak kita dah develop another skill and another need. depa baru kenal makanan lain selain daripada susu.

special day

22nd - dah wish besday to hubby. the sama date my bro in law (third bro) sambut besday.

26th - my sis ayuz. wish awal2 sbb takut tak der kt lak hphone nanti. mak teh, happy besday.

bulan july, dua org penting ni sajer yg sambut besday. tak mcm april - ramai...which remind me, aku dah bagi ker adiah kat nko ke enab?

lani cuma menunggu tarikh keramat best fren aku sain surat akad nikah. tak sabau. dah lama aku nak tengok dia atas pelamin.

susah nak cari kawan yg bole sesenang and sesusah bersama.

susah nak cari kawan yg bole faham inside and out.

susah nak cari kawan yg bole terima seburuk2 episod dalam hidup aku.

susah jgk nak cari kawan yg bole baca air muka - no explanation is needed.

haih...tak tau naper otak ni banyak sangat berpikir. maybe coz i'm having the same nightmares i had before..ada idea mcm mana nak hilangkan mimpi giler ni? penat sbb pepagi nak bangun tapi selalu berjaga mlm...

help, i need somebody

help

(lagu the beatles- mahal giler cd kompilasi dia.ada sesaper nak bagi adiah cd ni?janggut, sambung lagu ni...)

update

been busy these past few days. usually when amani and fifi fall asleep i took the chance to clean up the house, laundary, or online. but because this is july- raining season in johore, so i took this oppurtunity to start my latest project..wanna know what?

gardening.

sawi, bendi, kacang panjang, lada, cili padi, kangkung, kobis and carrot dah tumbuh. cuma tunggu kacang pea and kailan jer.maybe sebb setiap petang hujan, so ianya memudahkan aku utk mencangkul and tanam mana yg patut. tanah memang dah lama dibuat batas (minta tolong budak2 indonesian kat sini) tapi sawi aku mati sebb panas sangat last month. this month, happynyer aku bila dari benih dah bercambah besau. dapatla merasa hasil tangan sendiri.

aiks..jgn disangka aku ni tak reti nak berkebun ek. dulu masa duduk ngan mek (nenek aku) kat kg, aku ler yg dia heret ke kebun. dari buat batas sampailer kutip hasil...aku dah merasa panas terik berjemur. until today aku tabib mek...dia dah tua.tapi skitpun dia tak tunjuk sakit badan depan2 aku. cuma last visit aku nampak sangat wajah tua mek. sedih? haih..tak tahu ler nak ckp mcm mana. org tua tu yg besarkan aku dari kecik, dia yg duk bela aku. selalunya kalu aku pi pasar pasir puteh, most of the elders yg kenal mek panggil aku anak mek. sbb kulit aku sama mek kut.hahahaha..tak derla.

nantila aku amek gambau kebun mini aku tu ek. cheehh....

actually aku nak bercerita pasal amani and fifi ni....she's 9 months old already. another 3 months to go before she's one year!! wah. cepat tul masa jalan ek. gambau kat bawah ada gigi dia. nampak tak? this week amani garang betul dgn kakak dia and with me too..kalu dia nak marah, tangan dia gerak2 nak capai aku and fifi. nak buat aper? she wants to bite us. sian fifi. tapi selalunya fifi yg duk marah2 adik dia balik. last sunday, maybe sbb dia geram sangat kut dgn amani yg duk balas menjerit, fifi nearly gigit kepala adik dia. nasib baik aku ada. kalu tidak, aperler yg aku nak bagitau kat ayah depa ni. bawak amani lari dalam bilik. itu shjla penyelesaiannya kalu aku tak nak berangin. depa ni dah pandai tunjuk tanda2 memberontak kalu tak bagi apa yg depa nak. adakah aku memanjerkan depa? emm... huby cakap aku ni gayang dgn anak2.

there were times i have to be garang. (most of the time)...bukan sengaja..time ni fifi nak attention more than amani. her imagination and mind are developing really fast. am trying to teach her how to pronounce and recognize objects and animals. so far, i have to hide her flash card or else hancus ler. so, everytime amani starts to manja2 with me, she will show her tantrum. i have to solute those who have more than 2 kids and raising them byself. really solute. lebih2 bila anak2 cepat membesar these days. kan?

walaupun aku garang dgn anak2, depa tetap cari aku bila ada apa2. time sakit lagila, walaupun selsema.lagila manja.

anak ayah

yup...both of them are dady's sweethearts.regardless how many hours i spent with them, they would always choose their dad..huhuhu...

everytime and whenever their dad is around, they are well behave (sometimes cranky) and always want to sit or touch their dad..they would laugh aloud (sometimes we laugh along upon hearing them laughing) and soooo manjerr especially fifi. so amani wont stand a chance to sit with her ayah if fifi is around.

if i sat beside their ayah, fifi would do the same..she cannot leave me alone with her ayah. so i end up changing my seat.she would loves to have her lunch and dinner with her ayah and always mimicking whatever her ayah did. just last night i was suprise when she suddently whimping sadly while holding her toes. i though she was hurts and walla..there she was mimicking her ayah.


they would always run to the door to great their dady from work, and would always want their dad to hug and play with them. i guess because i was at home so they dont really feel missing me that much uh? :)

i loves the way their eyes shine and laughing when their dad caming home..i loves the way fifi laugh alaud when she knew we were wacthing her and knowing that, she would cover her mouth with her tiny fingers. i loves the way she smiles and run upon hearing the sound of her dad motorcycle. i loves the way she talks to her dad not realizing that me and her dad smile at each other. i loves the way she jump to her dad and teasing him.


i realized this evening, how beautiful they are to me...even when they have their moment to upset me..i realized this evening, how Allah gives me this wonderful gifts to me and huby alone. for us to share our life with.for us to smile and feel the joy even when we face difficulty.

Domestic inquiry

mata dah mengantuk..hidung lak asyik pedih ..nampaknya i'm having flu...wawawa...

am doing a domestic inquiry for my huby. since he work late already, so i took over jap..lagipun dia nak kena bangun kul 5.30 esok..sian kat huby. aku? aku memang dah terbiasa tido lewat. cuma maybe sbb dah lama aku tak buat kerja, so mata aku ni asyik nak pejam..terpaksa amek alternatif layan perasaan jap sebelum sambung balik..

apa benda domestic inquiry ni? kalu translet balik dalam bhs, siasatan dalaman..kalu ada case curi ker, apa ker, so depa buatla DI ni..last month, ada worker curi getah, so huby in charge for inquiry. first inquiry dah lepas..dah masuk jel and keluar ikat jamin pun..second inquiry ni, manager estet sebelah kena jadi saksi sebelum ful report dihantar ke HQ and further action taken..maknanyer sebelum betul2 kena buang kerja la.

aku kesian jgk kat org yg ditangkap ni..tapi kalu dah mencuri atas alasan nak cover duit minyak sbb anak2 ramai, aku rasa itu tindakan bodoh. entahla. aku bukan org yg bole menilai kesalahan dia ni..tapi nak buat mcm mana, terpaksa ler dia cari kerja lain kang.