hati ibu

imagine terserempak dgn seorang ibu yg menolak anaknya yg kurang upaya dalam stroller. perasaan?

imagine bila asyik duk pilih barang dapur and terserempak dengan ibu yg sama tapi sekarang ada si ayah and anak perempuan yg cukup sifat and comel. perasaan?

imagine bila utk ke sekian kalinya terserempak and melihat si ibu jauh skit dari anak yg kurang upaya kerana menengok cincin silver sampaikan anak menangis tak sedar. perasaan?

imagine bila si ayah tengah duk amek gambar anak perempuannya and tak sedar yg anak lelakinya yg kurang upaya meronta dalam stroller. perasaan?

imagine bila kita melihat org yg lalu lalang dan melihat anak tadi and si ibu sambil menggeleng kepala. perasaan?

imagine bila si ibu sedar, baru ditolak stroller anaknya dekat skit and si ayah mula mengambil si anak utk bermain sebelah anak perempuannya. perasaan?

imagine bila anak lelaki yg kurang upaya mula tidak selesa and si ibu mendukung si anak perempuan sementera si ayah melayan si abang. perasaan?


i'm not a good person and i'm not really interested in other person or even their life for no reason. but i do have feeling when i saw what happen. i might not understand the mother. maybe she's tired and only this time she find her own peace. i might not being fair to judge other people character or act based on what i see and hear- it will not be fair for them or for me.

somehow i feel sad for no reason when i looked at that child. somehow...

six months

when amani and fifi turned 5 months old, i counted days until they turn 6 months. why? simple..a month for celebration. finally i can feed them with real food. celebration la tu...

as for fifi, maybe sbb i'm a new mother so excited tu terlebih2 sampai beli geber, nestum and etc. well, tak berapa elok sebenarnya (dependla..ini pendapat aku jer ehh). so when it came to amani turn, i dont really fed her nestum - lagipun dia memang tak nak. so most of the time, i cooked bubur nasi and puri buah. of course bubur nasi tu kena make sure lembik sesangat supaya tummy dia tak terkejut. take turn dgn masak puri buah and puri patato supaya dia tak jemu. lagipun time ni crucial kalu tak jaga betul2 apa yg dia makan. takut nanti dia ada sembelit, susah nanti.

kesian kat anak..lagi2 kalu mothers yg mcm aku ni...have to admit aku paling takut nak sumbat punggung anak dgn medicine cair yg memudahkan pembuangan air besar anak. tak pernah pun aku pegang and memang tak kan nak...aku tak berani.. so, alternatif lain, make sure bubur tu ada sawi, epal hijau and selalula urut perut anak (mcm dalam Nona- URUTAN BAYi).

i am blessed sbb amani and fifi paling suka makan bubur sawi (sawi kan ada banyak jenis, so pandai2 la bergilir2).

yg paling elok, jgnla kerap sangat masak bubur nasi with kentang. kata maksu huby nanti bertambah gebula kemontelan anak tu..(jarangkan2 la...memangla manis masak bubur nasi with kentang- yum yum). no wonder fifi cepat sangat membesar...dulu aku selalu sangat campur2 nasi and kentang. time amani, dah kurang sbb baru tahu.

bagi aku ini perkara penting. masuk umur 6 bulan, anak kita dah develop another skill and another need. depa baru kenal makanan lain selain daripada susu.

special day

22nd - dah wish besday to hubby. the sama date my bro in law (third bro) sambut besday.

26th - my sis ayuz. wish awal2 sbb takut tak der kt lak hphone nanti. mak teh, happy besday.

bulan july, dua org penting ni sajer yg sambut besday. tak mcm april - ramai...which remind me, aku dah bagi ker adiah kat nko ke enab?

lani cuma menunggu tarikh keramat best fren aku sain surat akad nikah. tak sabau. dah lama aku nak tengok dia atas pelamin.

susah nak cari kawan yg bole sesenang and sesusah bersama.

susah nak cari kawan yg bole faham inside and out.

susah nak cari kawan yg bole terima seburuk2 episod dalam hidup aku.

susah jgk nak cari kawan yg bole baca air muka - no explanation is needed.

haih...tak tau naper otak ni banyak sangat berpikir. maybe coz i'm having the same nightmares i had before..ada idea mcm mana nak hilangkan mimpi giler ni? penat sbb pepagi nak bangun tapi selalu berjaga mlm...

help, i need somebody

help

(lagu the beatles- mahal giler cd kompilasi dia.ada sesaper nak bagi adiah cd ni?janggut, sambung lagu ni...)

update

been busy these past few days. usually when amani and fifi fall asleep i took the chance to clean up the house, laundary, or online. but because this is july- raining season in johore, so i took this oppurtunity to start my latest project..wanna know what?

gardening.

sawi, bendi, kacang panjang, lada, cili padi, kangkung, kobis and carrot dah tumbuh. cuma tunggu kacang pea and kailan jer.maybe sebb setiap petang hujan, so ianya memudahkan aku utk mencangkul and tanam mana yg patut. tanah memang dah lama dibuat batas (minta tolong budak2 indonesian kat sini) tapi sawi aku mati sebb panas sangat last month. this month, happynyer aku bila dari benih dah bercambah besau. dapatla merasa hasil tangan sendiri.

aiks..jgn disangka aku ni tak reti nak berkebun ek. dulu masa duduk ngan mek (nenek aku) kat kg, aku ler yg dia heret ke kebun. dari buat batas sampailer kutip hasil...aku dah merasa panas terik berjemur. until today aku tabib mek...dia dah tua.tapi skitpun dia tak tunjuk sakit badan depan2 aku. cuma last visit aku nampak sangat wajah tua mek. sedih? haih..tak tahu ler nak ckp mcm mana. org tua tu yg besarkan aku dari kecik, dia yg duk bela aku. selalunya kalu aku pi pasar pasir puteh, most of the elders yg kenal mek panggil aku anak mek. sbb kulit aku sama mek kut.hahahaha..tak derla.

nantila aku amek gambau kebun mini aku tu ek. cheehh....

actually aku nak bercerita pasal amani and fifi ni....she's 9 months old already. another 3 months to go before she's one year!! wah. cepat tul masa jalan ek. gambau kat bawah ada gigi dia. nampak tak? this week amani garang betul dgn kakak dia and with me too..kalu dia nak marah, tangan dia gerak2 nak capai aku and fifi. nak buat aper? she wants to bite us. sian fifi. tapi selalunya fifi yg duk marah2 adik dia balik. last sunday, maybe sbb dia geram sangat kut dgn amani yg duk balas menjerit, fifi nearly gigit kepala adik dia. nasib baik aku ada. kalu tidak, aperler yg aku nak bagitau kat ayah depa ni. bawak amani lari dalam bilik. itu shjla penyelesaiannya kalu aku tak nak berangin. depa ni dah pandai tunjuk tanda2 memberontak kalu tak bagi apa yg depa nak. adakah aku memanjerkan depa? emm... huby cakap aku ni gayang dgn anak2.

there were times i have to be garang. (most of the time)...bukan sengaja..time ni fifi nak attention more than amani. her imagination and mind are developing really fast. am trying to teach her how to pronounce and recognize objects and animals. so far, i have to hide her flash card or else hancus ler. so, everytime amani starts to manja2 with me, she will show her tantrum. i have to solute those who have more than 2 kids and raising them byself. really solute. lebih2 bila anak2 cepat membesar these days. kan?

walaupun aku garang dgn anak2, depa tetap cari aku bila ada apa2. time sakit lagila, walaupun selsema.lagila manja.

anak ayah

yup...both of them are dady's sweethearts.regardless how many hours i spent with them, they would always choose their dad..huhuhu...

everytime and whenever their dad is around, they are well behave (sometimes cranky) and always want to sit or touch their dad..they would laugh aloud (sometimes we laugh along upon hearing them laughing) and soooo manjerr especially fifi. so amani wont stand a chance to sit with her ayah if fifi is around.

if i sat beside their ayah, fifi would do the same..she cannot leave me alone with her ayah. so i end up changing my seat.she would loves to have her lunch and dinner with her ayah and always mimicking whatever her ayah did. just last night i was suprise when she suddently whimping sadly while holding her toes. i though she was hurts and walla..there she was mimicking her ayah.


they would always run to the door to great their dady from work, and would always want their dad to hug and play with them. i guess because i was at home so they dont really feel missing me that much uh? :)

i loves the way their eyes shine and laughing when their dad caming home..i loves the way fifi laugh alaud when she knew we were wacthing her and knowing that, she would cover her mouth with her tiny fingers. i loves the way she smiles and run upon hearing the sound of her dad motorcycle. i loves the way she talks to her dad not realizing that me and her dad smile at each other. i loves the way she jump to her dad and teasing him.


i realized this evening, how beautiful they are to me...even when they have their moment to upset me..i realized this evening, how Allah gives me this wonderful gifts to me and huby alone. for us to share our life with.for us to smile and feel the joy even when we face difficulty.

Domestic inquiry

mata dah mengantuk..hidung lak asyik pedih ..nampaknya i'm having flu...wawawa...

am doing a domestic inquiry for my huby. since he work late already, so i took over jap..lagipun dia nak kena bangun kul 5.30 esok..sian kat huby. aku? aku memang dah terbiasa tido lewat. cuma maybe sbb dah lama aku tak buat kerja, so mata aku ni asyik nak pejam..terpaksa amek alternatif layan perasaan jap sebelum sambung balik..

apa benda domestic inquiry ni? kalu translet balik dalam bhs, siasatan dalaman..kalu ada case curi ker, apa ker, so depa buatla DI ni..last month, ada worker curi getah, so huby in charge for inquiry. first inquiry dah lepas..dah masuk jel and keluar ikat jamin pun..second inquiry ni, manager estet sebelah kena jadi saksi sebelum ful report dihantar ke HQ and further action taken..maknanyer sebelum betul2 kena buang kerja la.

aku kesian jgk kat org yg ditangkap ni..tapi kalu dah mencuri atas alasan nak cover duit minyak sbb anak2 ramai, aku rasa itu tindakan bodoh. entahla. aku bukan org yg bole menilai kesalahan dia ni..tapi nak buat mcm mana, terpaksa ler dia cari kerja lain kang.

first teeth

like other mothers in this world, i am exited to watch amani's first baby tooth appear..it seem that she'll having her first bottom teeth and ouch, it really hurts when she bites my ... (alhamdullilah, am still able to breastfed her). at this stage, the teeth will started to grow at the age 6 months until 36 months old (for baby teeth)

as for amani and fifi, they both got their first teeth at the age 9 months and 10 months. different uh? yup..both of them have different development in growing up..the only thing that suprised me about amani is that, she didnt get any fever due to this new development, unlike fifi.

well, as for me this is one of the most critical moment for amani. not only she will learn to get use with her new teeth, this is also her first step to chew her food. lately, she've been chewing her lips. she doesnt really like to use teether like her sister and the victim would be me....huhuhu. have to stop this before she hurts me more :)

dah pandai

dah lewat tapi aku tak tido lagi. sure esok aku main mata ler ngan anak2 aku kang.

hari ni, happy skit sbb amani dah cuba2 angkat punggung (utk merangkak dalam erti kata yg sebetulnya). cuma tangan amani sedikit tidak kuat and asyik jatuh balik jer..nasib baik atas katil and aku nak rakam pun tak sampai ati.takut kang terjatuh aku lak asyik ngan kamera. huhuhu..happynya. another stage to go and more stages awaits.

afifah? dia dah pandai gigit tangan adik dia kalu adik dia asyik duk kacau. alahai..sian amani. aku nak marah fifi pun tak leh gak..so sudahnya aku larikan amani dalam bilik dulu...supaya marah kakaknya reda skit...and supaya aku tak berangin..hahaha.tapi selalunya amani ni tak makan dek saman. lagi kakak dia marah, lagi dia duk pi dekat. emm

fifi dah kureng bab2 makan ni. naik risau lak..ada aper2 idea??

and satu lagi berita gembira..tadi aku terjumper adik junior time aku study dulu..bukanla junior course aku tapi junior di kolej telekom (kolej kediaman). suprised giler...menjerit ler jgk aku tadi dalam giant tu ahh..sampei menitik jugakla air mata ni..dah dekat 5 tahun aku tak jumper dia. last time aku jumper pun masa aku konvo dulu...teringat balik time2 kenakalan budak bertuah ni..selalunya dia ler yg duk sekat aku kalu dia tengok cerita hantu.hampeh..hahahahaa..aku bukannyer leh tengok cerita genre ni..sampai terbawak dalam mimpi ler karang. dia tak keja lani, duk ngan huby dia di Gemas...tengah planning nak ada anak..i pray for you girl...


notes: to ayu(cousin huby) and her husband- best wishes for your newfound family...new path, new responsibilities...may your marriage last till the end.