lonely

ever since i'm at home

i never really felt lonely

the time flew away

when i'm with my kids

last month

i felt lonely

my aunt passed away

i was depressed

havent seen my babies the whole day

locked myself in a room

alone

feeling regret

i can never visit her again

feeling guilty

for i have not seen her for four years

hating for myself

for not knowing that she was hospitalized

i felt lonely

and it was painful.

and i felt it again this month..

i'm not really know arwah

somehow

i felt lonely

because i am here

i am not there

i dont know what to do

what to say

what to write

what to ask