nak kater budak2 bangla ni buter tak boler lak tapi memang depa ni dah tak ada panggilan lain kut nak panggil aku.
petang tadi 3 org berbangsa bangladesh datang umah utk korekkan lubang (aku nak tanam pokok besau, tak larat nak bercangkul so huby panggilkan workers dia..kiranya depa buat OT ler). memang depa tak berapa nak faham bahasa kita so banyakler guna isyarat tangan nak suruh depa buat lubang kat maner and tanam kat mana. alkisahnya, cuma ada seorang jer yg bole bertutur bahasa so aku banyak cakap dgn dia ler kalu nak mintak tolong mana yg patut.
adala time tu depa nak air (panas sangat ari ni) and requested from me..
"auntie, air ada?"
muler2 tu aku kompius jgk tapi disbbkan takder dah perempuan lain kat umah, jadinyer dia refer kat aku ler kan? hampess tulll...
muker aku ni dah tua bebenor ker? ada jer nak kena tendang karate.
biler nak balik-
"auntie, terima kasih"
hampesss
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
private practise
haah...tengok tak? private practise (ntv7)..kiranya new version of anatomy grey. i like it..
tapi aku bukan nak cerita pasal that new series. the first episode pasal csec. dulu pernah tengok online how it was done and it gave me bumps all over. tonight, teringat la balik time deliver my babies. sakitnya masih terasa. mungkin sbb kekadang aku duk dukung fifi kekadang tu.
time fifi dulu, cuma terasa sakit false alarm...not really sakit nak bersalin tapi disebbkan aku sesak nafas, dr advised me to csec. dgn amani lak, original plan memang nak normal (that was my only chance) tapi tak bole sbb 3.7 kg. dr risau kut2 rahim aku pecah..so proceed ler csec jgk. terkilan sbb aku tak merasa sakit nak melahirkan anak. tapi kena potong pun sakit jgk per! cuma time amani jer aku sempat merasa sakit nak bersalin, memang dah berdarah katil pital tu tapi disbbkan aku dah pun booking csec, tak bole nak deliver normal.
alhamdullilah, sec time, aku tak merasa perut aku kena toreh, tak merasa perutku digoyang2..and the best part, aku sedar sepanjang operation dijalankan. dapat cium amani, dapat dengar dia menangis..dapat tengok dia sebelum org lain (except for the drs and the staff). bila nurse bawak amani jumper aku, i dont regret having csec as long my baby safe.
sekarang, bila tengok anak2 aku membesar depan mata sendiri, i thanked to Allah. aku dah rasa 5 bulan hidup dgn hari2 telifon mertua bertanyakan anak di kg. perit sbb hati asyik teringatkan anak. sedih bila tak dapat dengar her first words and etc. tapi aku bersyukur sangat2 sbb my in laws really taking care of afifah. bila anak2 dah tido mcm malam ni, sebak dada bila teringatkan kawan aku yg terpaksa meninggalkan anak di kg...been there and insya Allah, i can understand your feeling.
malik, keep it strong.
tapi aku bukan nak cerita pasal that new series. the first episode pasal csec. dulu pernah tengok online how it was done and it gave me bumps all over. tonight, teringat la balik time deliver my babies. sakitnya masih terasa. mungkin sbb kekadang aku duk dukung fifi kekadang tu.
time fifi dulu, cuma terasa sakit false alarm...not really sakit nak bersalin tapi disebbkan aku sesak nafas, dr advised me to csec. dgn amani lak, original plan memang nak normal (that was my only chance) tapi tak bole sbb 3.7 kg. dr risau kut2 rahim aku pecah..so proceed ler csec jgk. terkilan sbb aku tak merasa sakit nak melahirkan anak. tapi kena potong pun sakit jgk per! cuma time amani jer aku sempat merasa sakit nak bersalin, memang dah berdarah katil pital tu tapi disbbkan aku dah pun booking csec, tak bole nak deliver normal.
alhamdullilah, sec time, aku tak merasa perut aku kena toreh, tak merasa perutku digoyang2..and the best part, aku sedar sepanjang operation dijalankan. dapat cium amani, dapat dengar dia menangis..dapat tengok dia sebelum org lain (except for the drs and the staff). bila nurse bawak amani jumper aku, i dont regret having csec as long my baby safe.
sekarang, bila tengok anak2 aku membesar depan mata sendiri, i thanked to Allah. aku dah rasa 5 bulan hidup dgn hari2 telifon mertua bertanyakan anak di kg. perit sbb hati asyik teringatkan anak. sedih bila tak dapat dengar her first words and etc. tapi aku bersyukur sangat2 sbb my in laws really taking care of afifah. bila anak2 dah tido mcm malam ni, sebak dada bila teringatkan kawan aku yg terpaksa meninggalkan anak di kg...been there and insya Allah, i can understand your feeling.
malik, keep it strong.
amani baru bangun tido..
fifi's new hair cut.makcik yg tolong kemaskan umah cakap aku pandai gunting rambut..muahahaha...
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
long time ago
tetiba jadi sentimental memalam ni.
actually pagi tadi aku dapat sms dari seorang teman lamer. dia pensyarah lani and alhamdullilah, a mother of two. aku terkejut sbb dah lamer aku lost contact. teringat balik time kami keja sama2 dulu. she's a year senior in our faculty. she told me about her students and somehow i'm not really suprised. i recall when i'm having a meeting at lumut with the uum lectures. they were marking papers and i read some of it. most of the answers written were crap. sorry to say this. even my ex lect (who came) admitted it. entahla..
i'm glad she is in her position now. long time ago, i want to pursue the same dream..and somehow, i was left behind. cannot say i did not regret about it. i did. and now? i'm glad that i'm with my kids. even for some people, even in my family, they did not really understand the way i'm thinking. but what the heck.like angah said in her blog, i want to choose to be happy. and alhamdullilah..even there were times when i think i make a wrong decision, i choose not to overdo myself by regretting everything. i deserve the best and i know i should live with my decision. let just not push me about this. supports is what i need the most.
i still have a long way to go. so are my babies. let just hope for the best shall we...
actually pagi tadi aku dapat sms dari seorang teman lamer. dia pensyarah lani and alhamdullilah, a mother of two. aku terkejut sbb dah lamer aku lost contact. teringat balik time kami keja sama2 dulu. she's a year senior in our faculty. she told me about her students and somehow i'm not really suprised. i recall when i'm having a meeting at lumut with the uum lectures. they were marking papers and i read some of it. most of the answers written were crap. sorry to say this. even my ex lect (who came) admitted it. entahla..
i'm glad she is in her position now. long time ago, i want to pursue the same dream..and somehow, i was left behind. cannot say i did not regret about it. i did. and now? i'm glad that i'm with my kids. even for some people, even in my family, they did not really understand the way i'm thinking. but what the heck.like angah said in her blog, i want to choose to be happy. and alhamdullilah..even there were times when i think i make a wrong decision, i choose not to overdo myself by regretting everything. i deserve the best and i know i should live with my decision. let just not push me about this. supports is what i need the most.
i still have a long way to go. so are my babies. let just hope for the best shall we...
Saturday, June 14, 2008
satay no more
me and hubby..we are still shocked about what happen yesterday. fifi was eating satay, and as usual we let her hold the stick since she able to feed herself (memang dia tak nak kalu kami suapkan pun) and walla..out of nowhere the stick stuck in her right eye. our reaction?no need to ask. alhamdullilah, it didnt really stuck but accidently fifi tercucuk mata. since yesterday, right after hubby took away the stick, NO more satay in our house or to our kids...no need to doubt about it.when hubby said no, then it will be no..even for amani.
i recall when fifi fall down from her walker (few times), terus hubby simpan walker dalam stor.the same goes to kereta mainan dia. jatuh sekali, terus masuk dalam stor. and that is the only reason why hubby dont want to buy bicycle for fifi. i dont want to argue with him about it.
watch out for your kids. you might not know what they might do...lagipun depa tak tahu aper2 lagi. take this as a lesson.
i recall when fifi fall down from her walker (few times), terus hubby simpan walker dalam stor.the same goes to kereta mainan dia. jatuh sekali, terus masuk dalam stor. and that is the only reason why hubby dont want to buy bicycle for fifi. i dont want to argue with him about it.
watch out for your kids. you might not know what they might do...lagipun depa tak tahu aper2 lagi. take this as a lesson.
Friday, June 13, 2008
bosan vs terima ajerlah
malas nak cakap lebih2 karang tak pasai2 lak aku kena cop bebukan. hakikatnya, aku dah malas nak fikir pasal perasaan sendiri. aku sakit ke, sakit jiwa ker, sakit hati ker, aku dah tak reti nak tulis dalam blog ni. kekadang tu sbb2 inilah yg buat aku malas nak update blog, yg sepatutnya menjadi tempat utk aku merepek sorang2.tak perla. nak buat mcm mana...terima ajerla.
daripada aku duk merepek bebukan tengahmalam ni, baik aku cerita pasal anak2 aku yg semakin ribena ni haah...kekadang tu tengah duk marah nak mampus ni, they so something unexpectedly.huhuhu..
amani dah pandai merangkak dua hari lepas(er..tapi angkat punggung tak leh lagi, cuma tolak kaki utk MARA ke hadapan). bila dah sampai kat objek yg dia nak amek, dia gelak sorang2..nak gelak pun ada, tapi aku gelak jer. yg pasti, dia dah bole berdiri sendiri walaupun sekejap. tak sabar nak tunggu dia bole jalan lak..
fifi lak, hari ni dah pandai bukak peti ais sendiri.emm..apa lagi. semua brg dia wat kuar. sampai sayur aku layu ler jgk. tapi aku tak leh nak watper, sudahnya aku ler jadi tukang pungut aka tukang bersih sepenuh masa.
time makan, amani dah tak makan banyak..tak tau naper.confius aku. nestum memang dia reject terus. so, dari pagi sampailer malam, memang bubur nasi ler makanan dia. aku nak cuba letak yogurt lak..dia nak makan tak? so far, benda manis memang dia kureng.
fifi? emm bagiler makanan aper pun, seme dia makan. cuma dia kureng makan nasi lani. aku nak kena fikir alternatif lain. paling best, aku tengok dia makan buah epal kecil, abis ooo...suka aku...org nak kata anak aku bulat ke haper ke, aku tak peduli...asalkan berat badan dia tak obes and dia sihat, aku ON.
aku nak ajar fifi potty training ni...dia asyik nangis jer bila aku letak dia kat atas mangkuk tandas..tapi sebb kepala aku ni kekadang bertanduk, aku letak jer..sian dia..tapi malam tadi, dia gelak lak..hahahha...anak aku...confius aku kekadang tu..ikut saper la
dua2 suka tengok mickey mouse..jgn ingat aku bagi depa tengok cartoon jer..aku tapis mana yg bole. so far, alhamdullilah fifi dah pandai ikut instruction. cuma bila dia bad mood, aku surrender.
dua2 pandai baca aku bila aku marah. yg terbaru, bila aku marah kat fifi, dia akan duduk tepi atau naik riba, bercakap skit atau tak langsung, terus cium aku..huhuhu...aku nak marah lelamer pun tak sampai hati. yelah.mana aku tak marah. dia curah 3/4 bedak atas kepala adik dia. aku heran tul naper ler amani ni terima jer aper yg kakak dia buat. tapi silap aku gak. take for granted. bila anak senyap, aku ingat depa tak wat per2 so aku buat kerja aku..ruper nya.......emmmm.aku memang LANGSUNG tak leh tinggai depa berduaan.
aku potong lagi rambut fifi..huhuhu..cuma layer aku tak jadi sbb dia takleh duk diam. nantila aku amek gambar terbaru depa. selalu sangat tak sempat. dua2 dah makin aktif..
daripada aku duk merepek bebukan tengahmalam ni, baik aku cerita pasal anak2 aku yg semakin ribena ni haah...kekadang tu tengah duk marah nak mampus ni, they so something unexpectedly.huhuhu..
amani dah pandai merangkak dua hari lepas(er..tapi angkat punggung tak leh lagi, cuma tolak kaki utk MARA ke hadapan). bila dah sampai kat objek yg dia nak amek, dia gelak sorang2..nak gelak pun ada, tapi aku gelak jer. yg pasti, dia dah bole berdiri sendiri walaupun sekejap. tak sabar nak tunggu dia bole jalan lak..
fifi lak, hari ni dah pandai bukak peti ais sendiri.emm..apa lagi. semua brg dia wat kuar. sampai sayur aku layu ler jgk. tapi aku tak leh nak watper, sudahnya aku ler jadi tukang pungut aka tukang bersih sepenuh masa.
time makan, amani dah tak makan banyak..tak tau naper.confius aku. nestum memang dia reject terus. so, dari pagi sampailer malam, memang bubur nasi ler makanan dia. aku nak cuba letak yogurt lak..dia nak makan tak? so far, benda manis memang dia kureng.
fifi? emm bagiler makanan aper pun, seme dia makan. cuma dia kureng makan nasi lani. aku nak kena fikir alternatif lain. paling best, aku tengok dia makan buah epal kecil, abis ooo...suka aku...org nak kata anak aku bulat ke haper ke, aku tak peduli...asalkan berat badan dia tak obes and dia sihat, aku ON.
aku nak ajar fifi potty training ni...dia asyik nangis jer bila aku letak dia kat atas mangkuk tandas..tapi sebb kepala aku ni kekadang bertanduk, aku letak jer..sian dia..tapi malam tadi, dia gelak lak..hahahha...anak aku...confius aku kekadang tu..ikut saper la
dua2 suka tengok mickey mouse..jgn ingat aku bagi depa tengok cartoon jer..aku tapis mana yg bole. so far, alhamdullilah fifi dah pandai ikut instruction. cuma bila dia bad mood, aku surrender.
dua2 pandai baca aku bila aku marah. yg terbaru, bila aku marah kat fifi, dia akan duduk tepi atau naik riba, bercakap skit atau tak langsung, terus cium aku..huhuhu...aku nak marah lelamer pun tak sampai hati. yelah.mana aku tak marah. dia curah 3/4 bedak atas kepala adik dia. aku heran tul naper ler amani ni terima jer aper yg kakak dia buat. tapi silap aku gak. take for granted. bila anak senyap, aku ingat depa tak wat per2 so aku buat kerja aku..ruper nya.......emmmm.aku memang LANGSUNG tak leh tinggai depa berduaan.
aku potong lagi rambut fifi..huhuhu..cuma layer aku tak jadi sbb dia takleh duk diam. nantila aku amek gambar terbaru depa. selalu sangat tak sempat. dua2 dah makin aktif..
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