adios...

last entry for this year..and years ahead.

when i first started blogging, it was for fun. but recently, been tired and i hate to explain things that not everybody should know. so thank you.

have a nice, blessing life..may Allah swt bless you all.

:)

This is ME..

degil..

tak pernah nak faham perasaan org lain..

keras hati...

pentingkan diri sendiri?

is this me?



i am what i am... maybe i am all above. maybe i myself dont understand myself. but i do know me..

ada org tahu ke yg aku ni jenis pendendam? yg aku ni jenis simpan dalam hati sampai berkarat, sampai bernanah, sampai berdarah? no....tak ramai yg tahu...

ada org tahu ke aku ni jenis tadah emotional burden? tak ada... sbb aku sendiri tak tahu mcm mana nak bagitau org lain apa yg aku rasa sebenar..most of it terkurung dalam kotak. bila aku bukak, aku sendiri yg menangis sbb tak ada org faham...siapa yg nak faham kalau diri sendiri tutup kotak tu rapat2 kan...

tapi ini aku.... this is me. please try to understand...ada sebb kenapa aku berdiam. jgn dipaksa minta aku faham org lain sedangkan org lain tak cuba nak faham aku. jgn minta aku bukak pintu hati yg kering ni sbb dah terlalu lama kering...biar aku tadah mcm mana pun, bila aku dah sakit, aku tak bole berlakon aku sihat. bila aku dah putus asa pada harapan yg sedikit, there is no turning point for me anymore.

let me be me..let me be happy for the sake of me. let me open my box little by little.

i guess...i can wait...

i can understand...

and i know i have to give some time for you to settle down

but this heart insist to hear your voice...

to know that u are ok...

to know that u can cry with me

to know that you can share every single bit of your tears..

i really want to hear your voice...

i really need to stop this aching heart of mine..

am i selfish

the same old me

i'm still the same old me k...noticing some of my old friends keep insisting that i LOOK different (well..age does play some role) and that MY OLD SELF also changing..which i dont i am..am i? nay...still clumsy as ever, impatient as ever, moody- well..it does change a bit..

i'm still the same..believe me..

hotzzz

dah lama tak ujan kat segamat ni...malam ni ujan sat jer.....

what new in my life?

havent been updating my blog for awhile uh. been busy with my kids and trying to get my hands on flower dipping..much to my regret, it was indeed a tricky process and i've been very frustrated as the time goes by. haih..newey..am not going to give up, not when i'm planning to have MY dip flowers for my bro in law's hantaran...i can understand why people charging rm 15 and above for ONE dip flower..it was indeed a frustrating process (or it just me?).

hantaran pertunangan my bro in law

bekas cincin

hantaran buah

wish i could do more...but alhamdullilah....done it with budget given and thankful that the ceremony went well for both parties.